For a long time, I knew the harmful effects alcohol had on my body, my mind, and my soul. I studied it, analyzed it, and understood it logically. But still, there was something missing. There was an overwhelming sensation inside me that made me feel like I needed to drink—like I had no choice. It wasn’t until the early hours of this morning that I found the answer, the missing piece. And that piece changed everything.
The Root Cause: Quieting My Gifts
I realized I didn’t start drinking to have fun or let loose. I drank to quiet the voices, the downloads, the images, the visions, and the predictions that have always flowed through me. I drank because I was told I was abnormal, that what I experienced wasn’t “normal.” I drank because I believed that, in order to be accepted and loved, I needed to fit in. And alcohol made me feel like I could belong.
Fitting In vs. Being Extraordinary
For so long, I thought my gifts were a curse—something to be hidden, silenced, and numbed. The visions, the intuition, the deeper knowing, I thought they were preventing me from being loved and accepted by the world. But what I now understand is that those very things I tried to escape are my superpowers. They are what make me extraordinary. And by drinking, I was robbing myself of the life I was meant to live.
Alcohol and the Illusion of Connection
Alcohol gave me the illusion of connection, but it was never real. It disconnected me from my true self, from my gifts, from the parts of me that needed to be nurtured, not silenced. I was denying myself true, authentic connection—both with myself and with the world. In my efforts to be "normal," I was giving up an extraordinary life.
A New Commitment
Today, I am done handing over my power to alcohol. I am done trying to fit into a mold that was never meant for me. I am done believing that I need to be anything other than who I truly am. My gifts are not something to be numbed or quieted. They are the essence of who I am. And this is my one, precious life. I am choosing to honor it fully. To live authentically. To step into my power, once and for all.
Conclusion: Choosing an Extraordinary Life
For anyone who resonates with this, know that you are not alone. We are not cursed; we are powerful beyond measure. We don’t need to fit in to be loved. We need to embrace our uniqueness, our gifts, and our truth. It’s time to stop handing our power over to anything or anyone outside of ourselves. This is our time to live an extraordinary life.
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